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37 and never been loved

2008-06-19T05:14:25Z

when i go to bed i'll lay down and cry
before i sleep..
i'll hope i die..
as being alone realy breaks my heart..
no one to hold
just rips me apart
but i wake in the morning with tears on my cheeks
my face buried in my pillow... unable to speak..

i know i can never be loved.. i just wish i had a best friend who needed me in her life and who i could look after and make me feel needed.. ..

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better to be alone and lonely than to be hooked up

2008-06-19T05:00:23Z

with a abusive asshole... did that. now how do forgive my self for trying to fix him?.. how do i trust ANYONE NOW?... got hiv, and learned that world is full of evil fucks now what? im too strange 4 normal gays and too normal for the freaks that u have to unbutton skin to fuck.....oh well i wish i was in spain!

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Alone and very afraid

2008-04-06T12:48:11Z

Besides being lonely, I am currently in Stcoholm Sweden where I moved from Northern Indiana just outside Chicago. I came here for better job prospects..but that did not pan out. I had a job working as a mental health Professional before I left in a group home for adolencent boys...long story short there was a young man sexually abusing another low functioning young man...I asked my boss what he would do about it but nothing did..I reported it (doing the right thing) and was fired, let go...My landlady was letting herself into my apartment and stealing and calling me on the phone and constantly harrassing me....it was a bad seen and my lease was up. Took a chance on a companion from tribe from here who had visited me in the USA every month..but she is a divorce and has a huge battle gooing on with her ex husband and has 3 children in need of psychological care...so OUT OF THE Frying pan into the fire so to speak. I am now returning to the USA to my only friend, but he lives with a woman who is abrasive and doesn't like me..I return home with meger funds..no job and a temporary place to stay. I thought having 5 degrees and going to college for 12 years I would not have trouble finding work....but I did. I taught college for years and then as I was not tenured did not have my contract reknewed due to professional jelousy...since then I have taken low paying jobs that are not in my fielf of study studio fine arts and Art History..degrees as useless as toilet paper..last job Ihad paid just over 10 dollars an hour....scrapping to get by and working long hours and being stalked by my landlady, I had o time for dating and like now spent all my time on the computer. Now in two weeks I will be back in the USA....since I have beenhere 6 months I have huge culture shock, I have not driven my vehicle left in the Us for 6 months....all will be strange and a long hard road to a settled life again.....Why am I lonely? Because I have been doing this on my own for years...being strong, being couragious, positive, pushing myself...but when your not happy in your job and don't even have co -workers as friends.....shit yes it is lonely...being different doesn't help. I am not the regular football watching man..sigh. I sit here quite alone in Sweden wishing I had a warm and loving family to return to..but My Mother died young of breast cancer...my stepfather has remaried as has my sister and brother ad family ties have grown weak....seems they have no room or comapsion for me in their lives. I know I am currently in a shitty situation..I know I am returning to a shitty situation..the worst part is doing it all alone...and I am the type of person who thrives in groups and with suportive family and friends......so bsides being very lonely I am alone in crisis. any suggestions?

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WHY are we so lonely?

2008-03-12T01:58:42Z

Some can be in a room full of people and feel like they are alone in the middle of a ocean,others can be with a friend they have had for 50 years and still feel like they don't know you.With the amount of people in the world that are lonely why can't we end are loneliness?And for the people who are lonely because you have no friends,contact me.I will be your friend..I love everyone..

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Artificial intelligence will cure loneliness someday ...

2008-02-16T05:51:11Z

seriously, that's what i think! someday it won't matter how much of a misfit people are because they will be able to buy or rent as many robot friends as they need. for people who are very very poor the government will end up giving you your own robot, sort of like MediCaid or something. but quality will vary drastically.

it's sort of the equivalent of lonely people buying a dog but in this case you can actually have a real live (sort of) person to spend time with and converse with. does anybody else hope that this will come true someday?

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So sick of being alone

2007-10-14T05:01:13Z

In a crowd of people -- friends, boyfriends, etc.

Nobody KNOWS the real me, but I know tons of people.

But still, nobody to go to the grocery store with, to go shopping with, to just kick it with.

I always feel I have to be acting with most people -- so they don't get to see the real me but at least they like me. But that person I become never has a bad day, never has something bad happen, etc. Sunny Delight, I like to call her. I wish somehow I could buy a friend.

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Holidays Coming...

2007-10-10T06:14:59Z

Anybody dreading the upcoming holidays? Anybody else fear that they will spend them alone?

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Is there a drug...

2007-08-22T08:57:02Z

...that can get rid of the need the feeling of wanting to be loved/accepted? Part of me has no problem being alone, then there are times that I'm just miserable. I have friends and family, but it just isn't the same. I've had "relationships," the longest lasting maybe five months, but the only man I have ever truly connected with is my brother-in-law, and I find that the most depressing thing of all. I know that there are plenty of black women who fight convention and have made their own way in the world and have found love, but I'm fairly certain that I'm just too weird for anyone to ever be into me like that. Thanks for giving me a place to vent.

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Hello all, my name is Sebastian...

2007-08-11T00:58:24Z

Hello all, my name is Sebastian... I'm a female to male transexual, and I live alone. I would like to have a few friends. Please feel free to read my profile. Also, please feel comfortable to send me an email and rude emails will be deleted.

Thanks,

Sebastian

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2007-07-14T16:34:50Z

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Studies on "Lonely Madness" & "Solitary Confinement"

2007-06-08T02:11:10Z

I recently came across some articles about the effects of being lonely, which is how I have felt for almost 4 years, waiting for my (currently ex, but I don't know) girlfriend to commit to me and move.

These articles seem to confirm that the act of making me wait has caused me emotional distress. I hope that this can be taken into consideration when friends (mine and hers) wonder why I act so strangely. I also hope she would take that into account, and stop complaining that I've emotional bruises when I've been beaten with an emotional baseball bat!

I find it obvious that solitary confinement in prison is considered a punishment. In a worse state of absolute loneliness it is considered torture!
In the first reference below it is interesting they say that prisoners in solitary confinement have feelings of:
"depression, despair, anxiety, rage, claustrophobia, hallucinations,
problems with impulse control, and/or an impaired ability to think, concentrate, or remember."
I quite identify with a few of those!

The Effects of Solitary Confinement and Social Isolation on Mental and Emotional Health:
• http://serendip.brynmawr.edu/bb/neuro/neuro05/web3/c2frintner.html
[from Neurobiology and Behavior - "Serendip" at Bryn Mawr college, Bryn Mawr, PA]

Silent treatment does more harm than good:
• http://www.psych.purdue.edu/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=325&Itemid=82
[from Psychology at Purdue, West Lafayette, IN]

Even NASA is aware than a large segment of the population of humans cannot be left alone for long durations, they plan to have family go with the astronauts to keep them from making mistakes, being depressed, and working far more effectively and efficiently:
• http://www.popularmechanics.com/blogs/science_news/4212593.html

Anyone know of any other studies?
Is this how you feel about being lonely too?

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Hello kindred spirits!

2007-05-31T03:30:41Z

I have been looking for you.

LOVE TO ALL
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2007-05-17T03:38:33Z

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What I miss....

2007-05-08T11:28:31Z

Loneliness is harder to bear in the months after a relationship has ended. I miss cuddling and sex. I miss holding hands and playing backgammon. I miss the companionship and having someone to do things with.

He and I weren't going to go the long haul. We didn't have enough of the right things in common. But we enjoyed eachother's company. We had fun.

And I am so tired. Just tired and worn out. Tired of always having to take care of everything by myself, without even another to talk about it with. I'm tired of having to go to movies and restaurants by myself.

I was in a workshop this past weekend. And we had to partner up. Everyone was partnered up except me. I announced I needed a partner and someone showed up. But in the afternoon, I was again without a partner. I almost started crying. I felt like such a loser. Once again I was going to have to cope with doing a two person thing all by myself. So, I started preparing to do what I could by myself. And then another person who had been left hanging by the others came over and asked if I had a partner. Thank God. He was a nice person and I was glad to have a partner for the exercise. But it makes me sad that I am so sensitive about this.

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2007-05-08T04:58:06Z

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It hurts to be alone

2007-03-28T19:46:41Z

When you have been dropped by a lover it hurts mentally and depresses you but if the breakup is very unexpected it can cause acute physical pain. You body reacts to the stress of your mind. It is very hard to cope with.

It also hurts when you are unable to find a friend/lover that completes you. People tend to be so attracted to physical looks rather than the beauty inside. They don't take the time to see it.

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Too Needy

2007-03-16T15:58:58Z

Sometimes I feel the reason I feel lonely is because I'm ''too'' needy. Meaning I require a lot of attention to stay happy and give a lot of attention. That's not a bad thing is it?

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Valenscam day is coming-what will you be doing to ignore the whole thing

2007-01-26T03:46:37Z

Personally, I've never been impressed by v-day. Seems a great deal of hooplah for nothing and a chance for the retailers/eatin' places/hotels/other jackholes to charge extra for your expression of love.
Screw that.
Wanna show me love? Help me fix something in the house w/o me having to ask. Kidnap me for a weekend camping trip before or after v-day. Plant a tree in our name or pretend to be interested (haha!) when we are in a museum or art show or ignore me when I fall asleep at the baseball game (ok, be wacky too and put an ice cube down my shirt). I just can think of so many other things my partner (whenever that happens) can do to show love w/o having to resort to the clique day that is valenscam.
Way too much pressure on both people to show the world "hey I love this person" World +showing luv on v-day= not interested

So my gift to lovers everywhere is to wear black-mourning the commericalized insult that v-day has become. Plus, it makes my co-workers wonder about my sanity. Causing many eyebrows to be raised is most enjoyable >:)
/rant

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New Years Eve by Myself

2007-01-19T21:57:56Z

So I spent New Years Eve by myself. The person that I am supposta be working on this relationship spent the night with a family, his sisters in laws, while I spent the night by myself. I feel ok about it cause I think it lets me know to move on, that there is someone in this world that would spend time with me, especially the holidays, I am sure that he spent time with them so he could talk about himself. I spent it with my cats. I had several offers to go out but just wanted to spend it by myself. I called him and he pretended he was going to call just lost track of time..... Ya sure.... I think I am moving on.......

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Feeling OK about being a loner

2007-01-01T19:46:16Z

Have you all tried the enneagram psch test? I don't know how to cut and paste but you can just go to the Enneagram tribe and they give you a link and a summary of the different psychological profiles. I am a classic loner and I tested positive for the Individualist, Type Four. It's really an accurate description, in my case;being very independent, wanting to maintain uniqueness and dressing the part and also suffering the loneliness and depression of feeling so apart from the crowd. Even though I finally married, nine years ago, I am still very much isolated because of how I think; I'm a poet/aesthete and he's a very quiet earthy guy who, for the most part, is in the Borg collective; i.e. capitalistic materialistic pop culture sexual boob instead of a brain. But anyway, we have a daughter who loves us dearly and we get along okay; we just all have our own fantasy world. My nineteen year old son is pretty Fourish too.

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So sick of living amongst the Borg Collective!

2006-10-29T18:22:36Z

A friend of mine recently reminded me of how unconfortable most people are with those who don't "follow the crowd." Likewise, I'm uncomfortable around people who feel that following the crowd is mandatory. This dycotomy would definitely explain why I'm alone. I'm of the mind that the human race consists of billions of distinct individuals. While certain other people are of the mind that the human race is (or should be) much like the Borg Collective where indivduality is banned. So to deal with this mess, I've decided I should only associate with people who can tolerate my brand of individuality. Otherwise, I may be end up being assimilated into the "Borg Collective."

Assimilate into the Borg Collective
Become one with the Borg Collective
The android Data: Primitaive artificial organism. He will be obsolete in the new order.

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open to love

2006-10-24T21:18:10Z

Open ourselves to the love that is available to us.
We do not have to limit our sources of love. God and the Universe have an unlimited supply of what we need, including love.
When we are open to receiving love, we will begin to receive it. It may come from the most surprising places, including from within us.
We will be open to and aware of the love that is and has been there for us all along. We will feel and appreciate the love from friends. We will notice and enjoy the love that comes to us from family.
We will be ready to receive love in our special love relationships too. We do not have to accept love from unsafe people - people who will exploit us or with whom we don't want to have relationships. But there is plenty of good love available - love that heals our heart, meets our needs, and makes our spirit sing.
We have denied ourselves too long. We have been martyrs too long. We have given so much and allowed ourselves to receive too little. We have paid our dues. It is time to continue the chain of giving and receiving by allowing ourselves to receive.
Today, I will open myself to the love that is coming to me from the Universe. I will accept it and enjoy it when it comes.

from the book The Language of Letting Go, by Melody Beattie

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New, lonely/alone yet..

2006-10-23T00:23:26Z

rich with interesting topics/people who I work with/talk to frequently.
I have a 30% finished school bus to RV in my yard, a horse stabled near my job and a ready mind for traveling. So if I have all this coolness going on why the hades am I still on my own? Eh, who knows. I try hard not to dwell on that too much. 95% of the time I succeed but perhaps its the freakin' holidays coming around which reminds me even more that once again, another year closes w/o anyone by my side.

Other than that how's everyone doing?
Kai

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Regret

2006-10-22T23:15:06Z

Am I lonely now because of choices I made so long ago? Did I miss my chance for happiness because I was blind to the true value of a friend? He and I were close so long ago. And I, in my immaturity, valued the wrong things, and didn't see the truth. And then, he got married and disappeared for seven years. And for seven years, I missed my friend. For seven years, I thought of him, longing to share things with him.

Then he came back. Still married and tied to her with chains of offspring. And with each day we rebuild our friendship, I am filled with regret at what might have been.

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misunderstood

2006-10-21T14:49:30Z

Is it so bad, then, to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. To be great is to be misunderstood.
Emerson

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act from love

2006-10-21T05:48:18Z

"You who do your best to make your decisions out of Love, who refuse to be controlled by the subconscious machinations of fear, who take time, if necessary, in difficult situations to proceed slowly, consciously, lovingly, are truly among our own. Your awareness of these things will soon be in full. You are those upon whom we can depend during the coming shift."
Ken Carey

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having my heart broken gave me a broken heart

2006-10-19T03:44:59Z

How many times have I had my heart broken? And now the doctor says I have a heart murmer that wasn't there before.

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in an IKEA bathroom

2006-10-18T22:04:35Z

A few months ago I was at IKEA. (I have to drive four hours to my nearest IKEA, so this was no ordinary visit to retail land). Anyway, I was in the bathroom, sitting on the john, half aware of the conversations and other noise in the room when suddenly I hear the voice of a little girl a few stalls down yell "Hey! The other kid that's in here...Wanna be my friend?"

Life is so simple when you're a kid. At least it is before you start getting treated like a pariah because you're different and have a quirky personality. Then life becomes fear. Fear of rejection. Fear of getting hurt. Fear of being made fun of.

I used to be like that little girl. Outgoing. Open. Curious. An extrovert. My parents tell me that when I was little, we'd go camping. And I would know everyone in the campground within the first half hour. Then something happened. School. And I was the weird kid. And I withdrew and became an introvert. And then I became the fat kid because I started eating to suppress the pain of being rejected by my peers. Although, now I look at pictures of myself back then and I wasn't really fat. But for some reason I was teased about it.

And now I don't remember anything good about school. I only remember the bad stuff.

It's so easy for an otherwise normal kid to be turned into a misfit with no social skills. Childhood is a walk over hot coals. And my feet still burn.

And people wonder why I don't like kids.

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Friendship is stupider than ever!

2006-10-17T17:34:08Z

Is a friend really a friend if they punish your for not having the kind of personality they want you to have? I, of course, say that such an action is indicative of an enemy. And if you did the same thing to them, that would make you an asshole -- further proof that we live in a double standard dystopia. Also, another stupid question: Are the rules of friendship written in law, or are they just traditions that have generally been around for centuries? If the later is the case --and I think it is -- then that means I have the right to define friendship by my own terms. And the same sort of thing applies to everybody else. Therefore, whether I'm a good friend or not is completely dependent on context. Unfortunately, my conclusions here very likely will be ignored, and my view of frinedship -- according to many people -- will be defined as sign of my defective personality. And that's why I say Friendship is stupider than ever!

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my birthday!

2006-10-12T13:07:05Z

it's 12th of October and my birthday....... !3th of October, and Friday, a day of bad luck! Oucccccchhhhhhh....!

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2006-10-10T06:55:30Z

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Lonely or Feeling Low - Cannot Meet The Right People?

2006-10-01T22:42:04Z

Lonely or Feeling Low - Cannot Meet The Right People?

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My secret fear of being alone, I sit & hold hands with myself, I sit & make love to myself..

2006-09-25T01:32:12Z

My favorite line from a Christian Death song. Yes well my lifestyle hasn't supported me having a girlfriend for very long. I have been through a lot in my life. Been depressed, suicidial.. you name it.. I rely on my spirituality these days which is something most people do not understand. Most people are more involved with money than spirituality. I in fact have come to a point where I am living on the streets & I find interaction with most of the rat race people so disturbing. I am a Buddhist Monk which I guess means I'm not suppose to get laid but that is really not the case. I shouldn't be attached to getting a girlfriend but I really am sometimes.. it sucks being alone.. "People are strange when your a stranger faces look ugly when your alone.. women seem wicked when your unwanted.."

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just very lonely and very depressed

2006-09-20T01:32:31Z

just thinking why i have to be so dam depressed sometimes and lonely and if i will ever meet anyone special...

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2006-09-14T03:03:54Z

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See the beauty of France

2006-09-07T03:09:52Z

Hi! Just want to say thanks for letting me join the group. I found a site where you can find all about France. Just go to http://www.france-travel-tour.blogspot.com to see whats new there.

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what is loneliness?

2006-08-24T17:05:18Z

It is desolation, envy of others who are not alone, wondering why you have been rejected by people you like and why this is happening to you, feeling inferior and vulnerable, constantly fantasizing about not being alone and telling yourself that you are a good person, crying, making up imaginary people who love you and care about you, feeling that you are somehow contaminated-defective (and that other people can somehow tell), wanting to hug, hold hands and cuddle with someone. Our society does not realize how oppressive loneliness is. "A society of belonging" is what I would like.

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new member introduction

2006-08-16T08:58:24Z

Hi. I am alone. I have no friends. Most of my family lives in another city, in another state. They have not communicated with me for 13 years. I live near a parent who, unfortunately, is an abusive alcoholic, so we do not communicate. I have depression. I can't understand why I have seemingly been condemned to spending my life alone. I realize that some other people are even worse off than I am. I see myself as a good person. But some other people don't. I am not a mean person or a criminal. It seems to me that we live in a very cold, callous society. I often tell myself that I am a good person. Because I am alone and somewhat feminine, some people assume that i am gay (I'm not). I have suffered many attacks (physical-verbal assaults) because of this. I love books. Right now I am reading "Homophobia: A History" by Byrne Fone. I am reading it because I got it for $2.95 (retail price $32.50) and I wanted to get some insight on why so many people violently hate gay males. The reason? They are seen as disruptive of (as violating) ORDER. The short of it is that people who hate gay people live in a simple-minded black and white universe. I hope to make some friends in this group.

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hope ...

2006-08-08T20:03:27Z

Okay, I don't know about everyone else but I am a pretty hopeful person so, when I do get to that point. Where the darkness consumes my heart, where on a bright beautiful day I curse the world and everyone that is happy in it, that point where I am lonely and I feel alone.

I give it up, the hope inside, I would like to die in that minute that seems to last all day.

Unfortantly, I don't ....I wake up the next day and I try again. I volunteer, I go to work, I realize that some people with lots of friends are sometimes WORSE OFF THAN ME.

I do not have the answers but I do have hope...that is enough isn't it?

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its soooo hard to make friends

2006-08-07T18:05:12Z

I find it hard to make friends. I'm very private and find it difficult to open up to people. When I do find that connection w/ someone I try to be open w/ them, but again its finding people I feel confident around :( Man- this sounds totally pathetic. I've lived in the Seattle area for about 8 years and have really only 1 good friend. I feel like a hermit, and I actually feel security in that. I even find it difficult to tpe stuff online. I worry way too much about what people may think or post. BTW- its not that I'm bad looking or evil, I just can't seem to figure out the right way to meet people? I always wished (and continue to wish) that I were able to have lots of friends to go out with and be close to. Right now my main friend circle is me, and maybe my cat.

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People who like you

2006-07-07T11:30:55Z

If you want someone to do a favor for you, you have to make sure they like you. Because people who don't like you are very unlikely to do favors for you. I've noticed that when I ask strangers or folks I barely know for favors, they almost always say no. But when I ask people who like me for favors, they frequently say yes. I feel that I have a snowball's chance in the solar corona of persuading people to do me favors. Therefore, I only asks for favors from people who I believe are most likely to say yes. And those people are always the people who like me. Besides, I did recently decide that I need to avoid negative influences. Dealing with folks who don't like me is definitely a very negative influence. But dealing with folks who DO like me represents the height and depth of positive influences.

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I FEEL LIKE SHIT

2006-06-28T00:37:14Z

have you ever had one of these days where nothing goes right and everything seems like its never going to get better well im there .....i guess im feeling sorry for myself but i know we have all been there...

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I can only befriends with certain people

2006-06-19T02:40:16Z

It seems to me that I can only be freinds with certain people. Those certain people are those who don't get freaked out and disturbed by my "defective" personality. Of course such folks don't think I have a "defective" personality. In fact, they consistently treat me with dignity and respect. If I had my way, I'd be friends with everybody. But since I can't have that, I'll only be friends with those who can deal with me. Besides, I've had enough of the megatons of intense disrespect from those who claimed to be my friends but kept treating me like crap and crud. Of course that's what I get for living in this world without consensus.

-- Yul

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hi there

2006-06-05T16:40:09Z

well hi there im new to tribe and was looking for some tribes to join and this one i feel fits me to a tee..i am very lonely person i have not meet that special one in my life yet...and hoping i can grt some advice from you wonderful people...so feel free im always willing to listen...amber

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New in Idaho

2006-05-10T21:03:15Z

Anyone know where the best places are ,to go
horseback riding around the Nampa area?
Rent a horse...lol

Thanks,
Sherry

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new here

2006-05-10T12:00:21Z

Hi I'm new here.
My name is Isaac, I am a professional fine artist working in pure absract I am outgoing, I am intelligent, I am atractive young and not particularly tied down, I am however very very very lonley.

I do not get this because it seems to me I should be doing better than this, there is of course the little matter of my standing for the things I believe in and refusing to start smoking pot in order to make friends, I also don't like to drink at all, and listen almost exclusively to classical and baroque music avoiding most popular music like the plague. I suppose expecting to find people who are really interested in discussing Goethe at length was not a good social move on my part, probably now that I think of it forming an attraction to james Bunn's theories about semiotics didn't help either.

I f you think you might like to enjoy some challenging but warm conversation with me and you can separate yourself emotionaly from a subject and just enjoy playing with ideas feel free to message me, or whatever works, I'll be busy obsessively painting and devising newy theories in my studio.

cheers,

Isaac

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I am alone among millions

2006-05-09T05:57:30Z

Why is it I feel alone, even though I am surrounded by people. I go out and see other people, but they just don't relate to me. Nobody ever talks to me, and I get really lonely. I try to do things like asking "what time is it?" and sometimes I get an answer. Sometimes the world just seems like an unfriendly place. I tried yahoo chat, and went into a chat room on depression, but all I got was some guy who wanted to know if I had a "cam" or not. Who hits on people in a depression chatroom? WTF??

Somebody talk to me; I'm bored and disatisfied.

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courage, my friends

2006-05-07T08:44:26Z

I think loneliness is a condition of the modern human being. We no longer have a place in the world - the ties that used to bind us - family, church, fraternal, long-term jobs, etc, are shattered. I think coming here and being able to admit that you are lonely and in need shows great courage and I believe this maxim - ask and you will recieve.

I have found that tribe is actually an excellent way to get to know people. I have met many people locally, face to face, that I met on tribe...and I continue to...

and for those folks in Seattle....there is actually a special condition here called the "Seattle Freeze" which you can read about. This is an especially difficult city to make friends in. But, if you persevere, it will happen...

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Banned for life!

2006-05-03T00:31:29Z

I've decided that I will no longer go to comic book conventions. One of my archenemies in small press comics often goes to comic cons, and I don't want to be in the presence of an archenemy.

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Have some fun and learn something

2006-04-27T23:55:26Z

Live each season as it passes; breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit, and resign yourself to the influences of each." - Henry Thoreau
http://www.refdesk.com/

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the rain

2006-04-23T22:26:44Z

When it rains it pours appears to be an appropo for these days. While I can't stand people talking about the rain...I feel somehow justified that they get a taste of what I have to go thru being a lonely person.

The usual rant goes like this "the weather is SO bad I stay indoors alone" and I am like - duh when the weather is good I can be found indoors alone or even outdoors.

What is your experience?

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I NEED new friends!

2006-04-19T20:01:45Z

I NEED new friends! I recently lost a number of friends due to my "defective" personality, and I'm of the mind that I need some friends who can tolerate (not necessarily approve of) my "defective" personality. Of course in this world without consensus, no two people share the same view of what friendship is. Therefore, I've concluded that friends are required to find a compromise on their defintions of friendship. But that hasn't worked for me lately. One former friend of mine seemed to have decided that his definition of friendship is superior to mine. As a result, I had to follow his defintion of friendship (which includes being banned from his house for life). Since I thought (and still think) that's bullshit, I had to end the friendship.

Since there is a population of 6 billion, it should be entirely possible for me to find a few folks who can tolerate my "defective" personality. If not, then I guess that means life sucks far more than I thought it did.

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Nobody to talk to

2006-04-14T13:01:57Z

I'm feeling more pissed off and bummed out than usual. This is because I feel that I can't talk with any of my so-called family and friends about certain things that are worrying me. Not even my therapist is able to help me out here.

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I am not sure but

2006-04-04T18:50:22Z

I am in this group. I think having only 2-4 friends in your own city counts as lonely. Most of my friends have many more friends than I do. I rarely go out with my friends. Oddly I am pretty, I am loyal, and not too shy once you know me or dense. But for some reason I find being a single mom makes it a bit harder to meet new people and add the fact that I am kind of a dork to this.

I rest my case.

I am alone. So alone. Saturday night I am here on the computer. I dont have a friend here maybe having some vino with me or talking.

Ok. sometimes it happens, but usually only with bf's. Which right now I am all out of...

Wow. But tonight I saw my best friend. I saw him play a show. He is almost my only REAL friend here.

:(

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Everyday is another chance to.....

2006-04-03T05:08:40Z

Tell someone I love them.....
Hear my children laugh....
Count the stars and my blessings....
Watch the flowers dance....

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What Day Were You Born?

2006-03-27T09:01:33Z

What Day Were You Born?

Click Link to See..... www.timeanddate.com/date/birthday.html

Bethany Roberts Birthday Fun For Kids

Mondays Child Is Fair of Face
By Mother Goose

Click link for you day.
http://www.bethanyroberts.com/MondaysChildIsFairofFace.htm

The more we know and understand about ourself the better we relate to others.

All welcom at my tribe http://tribes.tribe.net/love4all

Have Fun Michael

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"extended conversation about life, love and all the dreams in between

2006-03-26T12:06:51Z

sounds like a good topic, Kala, I'll jump in and ramble about life, and all the dreams in between. Love is rather elusive, can't seem to nail it down, but life, got that in abundance -- large family, two dogs and I'm looking to adopt a greyhound. It's the dreams in between that really matter. I dream of love (who doesn't?), finding a purpose in my life and I dream of creating a quality of life for myself that is sustainable, enjoyable and purpose-driven. This is just off the top of my head, to get a new topic rolling....any takers?

La

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Hey,

2006-03-25T20:23:33Z

Very quiet here.

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New member

2006-03-09T21:05:30Z

Hey all.

Just thought i would post to say hi and let everyone know there was someone new reading and being interested.

I look forward to sharing thoughts and opinions with everyone. :)

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An introduction

2006-03-07T06:06:18Z

Hello all,

I joined Tribe a short time ago after being referred to it by a new friend of mine (thank you Marcella).

I've recently begun a return to social life after spending most of my adult life alone, in reality and in spirit. I've been spending the past four-or-so years piecing myself back together from what has remained of me. Only one friend stuck with me through all the years and she's been instrumental in getting me to this point. She also broke my heart and, paradoxically, strengthened our bond in the process.

I'm slowly, but surely, building up my network of friends, one at a time. It's tough going at times. I often want to retreat back into myself but I keep forcing myself to forge ahead, knowing it will get easier and that I have friends in my corner to help me out. I never want to return to the darkness of being alone, alone amongst a crowd.

Fear and loathing no longer have a place of power in my life.

No longer so lonely,
Steph

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It is very hard to meet new people and form friendships

2006-03-07T00:04:21Z

Please feel free to post your thoughts about this, below is my observation and experiance.

For about a year now I have been actively trying to form new friendships either thru dating, public events, volunteering, and earlier this year when I was injured. I have found "friendships" are easily formed here in cyberspace in communities like Tribe. Where in the "real" world I find it to be very difficult. First, I am a student and while I have biases generally I am open to everyone, all races and denominations and have formed "casual" relationships with people from all walks of life but no true "friendships". Secondly, I volunteer with various organizations, the volunteer sphere is rather small and you will find several people in the same circles but again, with a small acknowledgement I have yet to form significant friendship form that endeavor infact I found myself "the odd person out". Thirdly, when I was injured I met several people in the library and different outlets and while I was hesitant at first partly because I had been hit by a car and not only physical wounds but mental ones were needed to heal too, I found more "acquaintances" and when I returned to work these people forgot all about me. Fourthly, I have a dog and I live on a street in the dog group I would meet several people an unfortantly there was an incident and the group has disbanded as I tried to reconnect these people just didn't reply or even asked me to not bother them. While I would walk my dog several other single people would come out and greet me and him ( a dog is a great opener but I did not get him for that ) and so after some time ( three months ) of the same person I attempted to invite or suggest going to an event together with no success because "we were not friends" and btw these people were single adults ranging in age from 35 - 65.
So as I try and maybe find myself giving up, it is important to acknowledge that it is hard to make friendships later in life than originally imagined.

At times I ask what is wrong with me?

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Write About Your Feelings.

2006-03-05T16:47:57Z

When we feel lonely we can also feel isolated....

It can be a good idea to write a blog about how we feel because we can share this with others who will support us and also share their own stories.

You can also meet people this way by sharing an interest.

See this tite Writing Up
http://www.helptosucceed.love-au.com/
At this site you will also see other good links about writing

Another review here.
http://www.networking.love-au.com

Regards Michael

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new year-new beginnings

2006-02-17T22:05:33Z

85 and sunny here in Melbourne FL. Female in 50's wanting to get to know gentlemen that are more or less the same. Wanting to share life and see it as a journey.

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Hey, it's not so bad after all!

2006-02-17T22:00:45Z

Listen, I've found lots of friends on these tribes and other sites, so I know for a fact that people can connect up. I'm a 61 year old male in Naples, FL, with a dirty mind and a clean body - kept healthy from scuba diving for the last 40 years and boating around our state for just as long. So hit me up for a chat. Yours, David - drynders@earthlink.net

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Is he a friend or a lover?

2006-01-23T06:11:59Z

Okay, as lonely as it can be sometimes I know there are people out there that are way more lonelier than I ( especially if they don't have a cute dog like Peanut ).

So this is the guy story. He has been looking for "THE ONE" since forever and via Craigslist.org we met. When I did meet him two years ago ( it will be three this april ) he was gainfully employed at Stanford, he had goals, he seemed to be the whole package but, instead he turned out to be 'a dope head', lost his job and was still hung up on his ex. There is a lot of drama and immaturity I will spare you.

But he keeps on calling me in times of need or great disruption to his life. Basically, he lost his job, found a new one as a contractor but still can't commit to a real relationship but we have both said we can be friends that was before Christmas then I didn't hear from him ...until he needed someone to lean on because he is moving again.

He said he was "doing a lot of reflection" but, he certainly doesn't seem to "not care" but, that he "can't care" about me...

so...

in a state of dismay I can't decide if he is so lonely enough that he has become a lover (to my loneliness) or a friend?

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Hello...ello....ello......lo From a new member

2005-12-30T23:38:28Z

Echo heard in the corradors of the tribe I guess......Hi everyone.

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Alone on new year

2005-12-30T20:17:08Z

Anyone else who will spend this new year alone?

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for everyone who feels lonely or is truly alone this manic holiday

2005-12-21T22:45:58Z

feel lucky....sincerely think about it...for some of us this time of year is when the mental illnesses all come out in the open and remain the memory of a lifetime ( Aunt Betty levitated off her chair when she farts )

For all the reminders that its the end of the year..I can't wait for the new year and remember sometimes our own best friend is the person we appreciate most who is always there for us and that in my case has been myself on more than one occasion....

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One lonely monkey

2005-12-19T18:43:11Z

That is what I thought about after King Kong. Can you imagine, you are the last of your breed alone on an island. if you haven't seen the movie the scene in the cafe between denham and darrow is explenary of loneliness....

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Lonely and lonelier...

2005-12-01T06:54:07Z

Out of another thread on an other tribe I discovered something.
As I try not to be lonely so I keep dating and the men I want to have relationships are completely unattainable so I end up in a relationship feeling lonelier ...

So, where I feel very lonely and want to end it, but in some sadomascatic way I don't by picking up people who are not available to relieve my loneliness...

Now, for all those people out there reading this, I am not a psychologist or a good therapist just a lonely person who thinks WAAAYYYY tooo much!

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Only the Lonely

2005-11-29T19:33:16Z

This has gotta Be the Lonliest tribe on the planet! It's so lonely even the members don't come here. The BIG O would have loved it

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Alone

2005-11-22T12:43:42Z

Yup! It's true. There's a population of 6 billion, and I'm completely alone. I have all these weird and way-out ideas I want to express. And when I do express them, I often find that I'm the only one who appreciates them. Needless to say, no one is required to appreciate my ideas. But if there's a population of 6 billion, there should -- at the very least -- be a few thousand people who'll appreciate those ideas. So now I have to ask, where are those few thousand people?

But more to the point, it seems like I have to live everyday with what I perceive to be the pressure to "conform." It's as if my unique way of seeing and doing things is generally unacceptable. Of course I could solve this problem by "conforming." But life is already boring enough to me with the spectactular mediacrity I have to live through. If I "conformed", life would 100 times more boring! But of course that's my problem, so whatever.

Yes! This "being alone" problem is just a perception I have. I'm probably overexagerating anyway. Nevertheless, I feel that I'm so alone that those who also claim to be alone are nowhere near as alone as I am.

"`Til now I always got by on my own
"I never really cared until I met you
"And now it chills me to the bone
"How do I get you Alone
"How do I get you Alone"

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hello

2005-11-18T22:31:09Z

hello, i am a new member and was just wanting to say hi to everyone and see what was going on in this tribe

Kristi

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helo

2005-11-17T13:04:05Z

i am a newbie, slightly aprehensive but hoping to make a few friends.

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The past couple of weeks to prepare for the next couple of weeks

2005-11-15T19:39:23Z

Will brought up a good point, of late we have all been quiet on this chat room. I, for my part, have been throwing myself OUT THERE (where? your guess is as good as mine).

Partly, I have been fighting my loneliness by getting out and going to events and ignoring the fact of my being lonely.

The past few weeks I have been 'gearing' up to deal with the next 8 weeks just to 'coast' by the holidays. Yes, it is an enabling tactic but what's your trick?

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u think ur lonely

2005-11-15T12:29:14Z

try being 61yo, disabled, o'man that knowbody wants, or 4 the most part wont even talk to.

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Lonely people

2005-10-05T05:39:47Z

Someone talked about the new dating site called Beautiful People (www.beautifulpeople.net) and stated if all these people are beautiful and such why do they need dates?

Are they lonely like us?

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new to this tribe...

2005-09-26T06:51:14Z

i think i have found a place where i can be comfortable...it feels like home here...i am very lonely out here in seattle...i am a poet and writer and well...read the bio...but ii am very lonely and wish i had someone special in my life...it's been this way for years and i guess i've gotten used to it...well i hope to talk to someone soon...otherwise i'll go back to sleep...
david

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Imagine 40,000 people

2005-09-11T06:18:53Z

Okay, there is approximately 40,000 people in Black Rock right now...how many are lonely?

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Strangely happy being miserably alone.

2005-09-02T15:25:49Z

Earlier today I was angry and sad, "lonely", I guess...because I haven't made any close friends at colleg yet...but now I'm quite happy being utterly and totally alone.
all.alone.
:|

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Ciao Bellas...

2005-08-26T15:55:56Z

Ciao everyone! My name is Raven, I don't think I am very very very very lonely, but just very very very lonely. So I hope I can still be a part of the tribe. I keep meeting guys, but something doesn't always work. And sometimes it's not even me! I have a hard time meeting guys, or girls (im bi) other than on like chatlines over the phone. It's a bummer. Because guys approach me when im out at the mall sometimes, or when im working, but other than just saying i look good or all that stuff they say, they don't ask for my number. But it also might be because it's always the guys im not interested in that come up to me...

Sigh, whatever shall i do?

Love Raven

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Desolation of isolation

2005-07-21T16:59:05Z

Hi. Just joined, after trying to find someplace where people who just don't seem to connect might connect.

I started the day on an "up" and generally happy note. I'm married, I've got good friends, I'm involved with at least one other person (I'm poly), I have two more people with whom I occasionally play, life couldn't be better, right? I mean, how could someone whose life can be described that way feel alone?

I do.

Sure, I can go through the social motions. I can be in a roomful of people and pretend to enjoy myself, make small talk, even be charming. But the entire time, my brain is telling me that I don't belong, I don't fit in, that these people don't "get" me.

On my livejournal today, I posted a meme where those responding had to respond with one word to describe me. Among the responses were: "Experimenting" (I indentify as bi, poly, and into BDSM and various other kinks), "latent", "cryptographic", and several others. And these (except for the "latent" comment) were from people I've known for years.

People tend not to talk to me spontaneously. My wife's IM list stretches into the dozens. Mine is about 5 people, many of whom I never talk to, and most of whom never initiate a conversation. Were it not for work and forcing myself to go out and be social, I could go (and have gone) for days or weeks without human contact in any form.

Sometimes, my soul just reaches out to find someone else to talk to and share with. Inevitably, it returns empty-handed. *sigh*

I've seen and done things few others have. I'm well-read, well-educated, and can speak on a variety of topics. I'm not hideously deformed or conventionally "ugly".

I guess I just manage to be the square peg nobody can quite find a place for.

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Thinking about other people...

2005-06-13T21:10:33Z

It has happened again, someone was thinking about me, this time, the person brought over some napkins as I forgot to pick some up. I was stunned, it is sometimes the most simplest act is to think of someone else than one self...

Thoughts, Ideas, ????

I felt compelled to bestoy religious wishes on to the person....

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Is it possible to have friends and family and still be lonely?

2005-06-01T20:51:25Z

I find that even though I have friends and family that I still have
bouts of loneliness, I don`t know if it`s because I haven`t met
that significant other yet! or that I haven`t found that true deep
friendship that others seem too have. I did meet a couple online
and I can tell them anything but since they`re in arkansas it`s
hard to just call them up when I`m down. Like I said I do have
friends but you know how some guys can be, you start talking about how you feel and they freak out!

I don`t really know if I do classify as lonely, but I sure do feel
lonely at times and like now it just hits me right out of the blue.
Sorry about the rambling guys! Just wanted to get that off my
chest!!!!

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ever feel like you just don't belong....anywhere?

2005-06-01T20:42:37Z

just switched jobs into a new department at work, i have always been told i could get along with anybody, well apparently all the people i can't get along with are on this team...i mean there are always people on a team you can tolerate at least and things go fine but i mean these people are horrible. One guy likes to bully me i have went home or to the bathroom crying at least three times...we finally got into a week and half ago and i told him how i felt because he just totally copped an attitude with me and went off for no reason, well we "talked" it out and i could tell the whole time we were having this conversation he was bs'ing me!! so now i am just miserable in a few weeks we have to move desks so at least my sup who is super cool is moving me away from him but then i have the other 4 to deal with......

then there is home where my bf of almost 3 years seems to no longer want to be with me but when i try to talk to him i get magic 8 ball answers, maybe, not at this time, etc etc....we are a long distance relationship we have only seen each other 7-8 months out of that 3 years but now that we can be together for good it seems he has lost interest what is funny is he is the one that moved across the country to be with me which i am trully thankful for because i am not ready to leave here yet....but you would think after moving he would be happy to be together

i love music all types of music i mean pretty much all...my cd collection is weird and awesome:) i am learning to play drums now music is a HUGE part of my life but i dress mainly punk/goth although i am a hippie at heart recycling buying organic all that jazz...whatever i am who i am...but i hate the fact that the different parts of my life can't fit together in the outside world as well as they fit together for me....i hate being labeled and judged and people who try to break down who i am and catergorize it....

and then the fact that i don't feel i belong anywhere so i guess i don't belong with me...i mean i go out..and i judge myself i am not pretty enough...i am not thin enough ...i am not...feel in the blank....i mean it is weird..i have even tried to see a shrink about some stuff...and wow when i got on the weight thing which is a huge thing to me (for reasons i don't want to go into on here) all he could say was "well you look fine to me, if i saw you walking down the street i would not think you were overweight" wtf kind of babble is that...i mean ok dude i am spilling my guts out and that i all you can say?

oh well anyway sorry to ramble...just seems to be some good people on here and i am just looking for some new friends and a chance to not be judged and belong i guess..i found that is easier to do on the internet because the normal tendencies of judging are down to a minimum compared to the "real" world

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Jamba Juice

2005-04-30T17:10:57Z

yesterday, I was out and about and a Jamba Juice woman came out and gave me a free Jamba Juice. I was caught off-guard, she explained that she made a mistake and didn't want to throw it away. I was unsure of what was happening. First, a little disbelief but, then I wondered why did such a nice thing happen to me. Lastly, I felt I didn't properly thank her and for whatever, I felt some sort of shame.
I told this to someone else and the person explained it as maybe the woman needed to feel good so she did it by giving you something for nothing.

While I didn't think anything was wrong, why was I so suspicious of someone giving me something nice?

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thanks

2005-04-20T18:06:07Z

thanks you guys. all of your postive comments have helped me and made me feel better about my situation. i am so glad i posted. as soon as i typed the words and read them to myself, i felt better. i realized that i know several people who could not have survived everything i have been through lately. i am happy that this tribe exist. it's free therapy and i for one am grateful to have a found such a cool group of people.

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feeling overwhelmed

2005-04-19T17:08:08Z

the past few months of my life have overwhelmed me. i broke up my girlfriend and entered a depression that has lasted over 5 months. i lost 35 pounds, i can't focus, i lost my wallet twice, i lost my keys to my apt. twice, and i have lost three seperate cellphones since january. i was semi-homeless from jan. to mar. due to the fact that my ex-roommate when psycho on me and i had to get a restraining order against him. i just recently found a new apartment and i got fired three weeks ago, so i am behind on the rent. i have been trying to stay positive, but last wednesday i had a nervous breakdown and had to stay in the hospital for a few days. i keep telling myself that this time will pass, but i am so depressed. i feel i can't talk to anyone right now, so i am totally hibernating and ignoring everyone's calls and messages. all i can do is type on this computer. am i weak to feel so beaten down by life right now?

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Grief

2005-04-17T06:42:10Z

I recently lost a Loved One. I can think of nothing that has accentuated my lonliness more than laying alone in bed at night, with no one to hold me as I cry in mourning (and I had made so much progress in dealing with my solitude).

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Why bother?

2005-04-17T06:20:27Z

Have you ever felt that trying to be nice to someone is not worth the trouble. Granted, I don't mind being very lonely (granted I just got a dog) but, I was trying to be nice to someone recently and I ended up throwing my hands up in disgust and thinking "Why Should I bother trying to be nice to someone or get to know someone when they proceed to not give a damn about themselves or anything"

The case in point is someone I tried to meet via tribe and it just reinforced my belief that if someone wants to get to know me they will and I shouldn't bother otherwise.

Any similar experiences?

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How you doing Patricia?

2005-03-31T21:31:38Z

Patricia, just wondering if things are okay? were
you able to stave off the depression?

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trying to starve off depression ....any ideas

2005-03-17T21:39:04Z

I am about to enter a very dark period next week and i am trying to starve off depression setting in. I am going to be getting older and I will probably be alone and I swear it is like being outside on a crystal clear day and watching the sides of your eyeview start to darken and cloud. Any ideas at all could help..thanks in advance.

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Your Path To Fullfillment

2005-03-08T22:16:24Z

Soul Prints by Marc Gafni

I enthusiastically recommend this book to everyone. I've encountered nothing that addresses the reality of lonliness in such a beautifully validating and healing manner.

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